“WHY IS EVERYONE BETTER THAN ME?”
Am I not good enough?
- BY DR. AK RANA
You are ‘not less than anyone’. No one is better than you. You might not
believe me, it’s okay if you don’t believe me.
For you to decide on that, I will tell you a story
and you be the judge.
There was a girl who came for studies in a
new city, away from home. She was topper of
her school and was sincere with her studies.
There she met other students like her, she
was happy and excited. She dedicated all her
time to studies and then came the monthly
test.
She will surely secure a good rank, that’s
what she thought. On result day, she couldn’t
find her name in top 10, top 20 or even in top
50; her rank was 98.
She was taken aback and started studying
more diligently. In next test, her rank was 87,
still not within top 50.
She started looking at those who came 1st,
2nd, in top 10 or in top 20. She thought there
must be something special that makes them
better than her. They were
talking & laughing while she was reviewing
her notes. She was shy to talk to strangers so
she just used to observe them and wonder.
In next test, she came under 50 with a rank of
46. She was happy but not so happy. She
Studied and studied but every time she used
to commit silly mistakes or she used to have
time management problem. After reviewing
the whole paper, she used to write down all
the mistakes.
Next time her rank was 34, but she repeated
the same mistakes and was unhappy about it.
Many things had changed in her life and all
that she could see was study and study and
nothing else. She started feeling low and sad,
when she used to see a group of students
smiling & laughing, she thought she must be
wrong somewhere and all of them were better
than her.
One day one of them came to ask her a
question and she solved it. They talked about
some other stuff and without even realizing it
she found herself laughing. It’s been days
since she felt so happy, soon they become
friends.
She also started talking to other students,
days were all good. In one of the tests as she
was ill she couldn’t prepare much, but she
was confident and relaxed; she did
surprisingly very well, came 1st in her batch.
She decided to just study adequately not too
much to score well. She was weak in a topic
but saw her friends doing good in it, so she
changed the way of learning as that’s how
others do and they all were better than her.
Silly girl, they were not doing well overall, it
was just that particular topic. It was not study
or her way that was pulling her back, but too
much stress that was coming in her way.
What she wanted was a boost in her
confidence that she was lacking. It
was result of her hard work that she scored
well, but she changed the way of her
studying…
Soon she found syllabus increasing at a fast
pace, their ways were not working for her.
She was worried, puzzled and anxious. She
was always stressed to complete the ongoing
syllabus & to revise the previous one for the
upcoming test.
No matter how much she tried, paper was not
the same anymore. Her rank kept on
increasing, soon she was out of 100.
She tried to think what she used to do? What
toppers do? What others do? She was lost…
She started hating learning or studying, tears
used to come out when she used to look at
books. Her dreams were getting blurred in
front of her, as she ran to chase them.
She distanced herself from her friends. All her
hobbies, likes and dislikes disappeared. She
was no more afraid of dark, her life scared her
more. I think having something to fear is also
a leisure for someone.
One day she was eating all alone when
a girl came to join her. With a smiling face she
asked “How do you study? I am never able to
make in top 200, you see.”
Is that the end? No way…there is more to this
story, don’t reach to an answer so early.
I will tell you the rest in the next blog. If you
have your own views or a story to share, write
in comment section or reach to us
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also read BEING A STUDENT?
also read HOW TO BE HAPPY?
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